Xyngular: Day 5 (The Calm Commeth)

Last night was another night of laying in bed unable to sleep.  Around eleven I got up and went outside to sit on the porch in just my undies.  It was so peaceful and calm and warm.  I love a pleasant Summer night.  I think I finally drifted off to sleep around midnight.

This morning I woke to my alarm.  I suppose that means I slept hard.  I think my body has needed the rest and recovery from the physical withdrawal that it has gone through this week.  I weighed myself first thing and I am down another pound.  That makes seven pounds total since Sunday (4 days on this program). 

I really think that I am leveling out and getting back to my normal self.  I was still a bit cranky today, but felt more energetic and much friendlier to everyone and my lettuce wraps were amazing!!! 

Here is my protein and green mini meal at work.  That is water in the cup!

Here is my protein and green mini meal at work.  That is water in the cup!

For my 500 calorie lunch I had a half ham and swiss sandwich on wheat bread from the sandwich shop across the street from work.

This afternoon I had a chance to check in with Kristi online.  It was a good conversation and I was able to make her laugh.  To be honest I was laughing on my side as well.  In fact, I laughed hard enough that I had tears in my eyes.  I really needed that!  Thanks Kristi for listening to my strange and off color humor and for being such a great support.

When problems arise in life, understanding is half the battle.  This entire week I have felt what I thought was anger and aggression.  This is all fairly new to me and I didn't know how to process what was happening to my body.  I have since had time to reflect and come to terms with what I am going through.  There's a lot going on actually.  

First of all, the Xyngular products pack a punch.  This is certainly not a bad thing.  They have such a kick that my body has not known what to do with such a rapid change.  I have had physical issues that I am not used to and my entire being has been fighting back and resisting these changes. 

I really do believe that these products are good.  I believe that they have given me a major jump start.  This is why I've had the headaches, migraines, and all of the anger and aggression.  

This week my body has been super charged with good and wholesome nutrients.  In the past my body has been used to only receiving and processing fatty, high calorie, low nutrient, carbonated, caffeinated everything.  Of course I was going to have a rough detox and of course it was going to kick my ass.  What else could I expect?

The second part of the battle for me has been mental and emotional.  Eating has been my crutch for a very long time.  Comfort food has been my medicine of choice.  To suddenly deny myself of this medicine has caused me to panic. My automatic response has been to fight back with aggression and anger.  Now that I am aware, I can do better.

I am currently at the end of day five on this new journey.  Change is happening!  Physical, mental, and emotional change is happening.  I've needed this.  

Now that I understand where the fear, aggression, and confusion has been coming from, I can be more sensible and reasonable in resolving it as it happens in the future.  

I'm still not feeling 100% stabilized, but I know that I will get there.  Today I have seen a big change.  I'm over that half way mark in the 8 day program.  I have rounded the corner in more ways than one.  

Tonight I got home from work and did some dishes, meal prep, paid bills, made some phone calls, and I am in the process of typing this AND doing my laundry.  I must be feeling better eh?  I can feel my personality and true self coming back to the land of the living.  

Here is a picture of me sitting at my desk at work wearing my headset.  I was in the middle of eating my yummo lettuce wraps.  Enjoy!

BTW:  That sign over my shoulder says "100% AWESOME" because I AM!