Xyngular: Day 4 (Edgy, Anger, Rage, Aggression)

I chose this week to begin my Xyngluar 8 Day Ignite because it was supposed to be a very calm and slow week at work. It has been anything but calm and slow.  My employers chose this week to take a large handful of staff and put them in a training all day, each day, for the next few weeks.  This means ALL of their work must be absorbed by everyone else who is not in the training.  

Monday was hell, Tuesday was just as bad.  Not only were those folks all in training, but everyone stopped working for several hours to attend our annual work picnic.  Today was busy as well due to that same handful of people in training, and we were all taken away from our work for an hour long staff meeting.  All the work from those staff, plus all the man hours of work that didn't get done by the entire staff while at the picnic, plus staff meeting has cause this week to be probably the worst and busiest week at work that I have experienced in many months.

Starting the Xyngular program on a busy week has not helped matters at all.  The products have made me edgy, angry, short tempered, and VERY aggressive.  This is not who I am.  It is not the person I wish to be.  I'm holding on by a thread hoping that the coming minutes, hours, and days will bring me more stability and relief from this condition. 

Today my buttons got pushed and it triggered an almost physical rage to occur in me.  I received a short and friendly message via Facebook that suggested that if I were simply to follow the plan as it is set out, that I would not be having these reactions and that I would feel "SOOOOOOOOOO" much better.

I want it to be known that so far I have dedicated myself to this program.  I have not cheated, I have followed the schedule, I have put my heart and soul into making this work.  At $300 for a months supply, I am NOT just playing around and testing this out on some silly whim.  It was an insult to me and yes, I was offended at the suggestion that perhaps I'm just not doing it right.

I will admit that yesterday I did not eat as much protein in the morning as I should have.  I did however eat SOME protein.  I stuck as close as I could to the program.  In fact, THAT has really been the only mistake/error I have made thus far.  I truly do not believe that missing 4 oz's of protein and a cup of greens at ten o'clock in the morning on my third day of the program is the reason that I have felt like sheer and utter crap for the past four days.

With that said...  Last night I laid in bed and could not fall asleep.  I was exhausted but my body would not shut down.  The last time I looked at the clock it was after midnight.  This morning I woke before my alarm, got up, and got ready for work.  The day once again started with a small headache.  I worked through that and followed my steps.  

Brodie (another Xyngular superstar) suggested that to get the Xyng pill into my system quicker, I should try breaking open the capsule and pouring the contents directly into my morning protein shake.  I did just that.

I'm usually a pretty level person.  I got to work and every little thing was a trigger for anger, rage, and annoyance.  Trigger, trigger, trigger.  By ten I was ready to scream.  

Luckily I was able to eat my first mini meal of the day at that point in time.  I had taken Albacore tuna to work and that is what I ate.  It was good and seemed to help stabilize my mood.  I had a full 8 oz's of tuna plus my greens.  I just wished that it had kept me on an even keel longer than it did.

The rest of the day was a bi-polar roller coaster ride.  I was up, I was down.  I was ok, I was not ok.  

Maybe this program wasn't such a good idea for me.  Perhaps these products are just not meant for my body chemistry.  Is it really worth losing weight if I also lose my temper, my enjoyment of being around other people, and possibly my job due to acting out with some knee jerk anger and aggression?

Even with all of these side effects, I am committed to continue on.  I've been told that things will level out and that I will feel super fantastic soon.  May that day come quickly!

Upon arriving home from work, I fried up some lean ground turkey and measured it into containers for work in the morning.

Fried Extra Lean Turkey for Lettuce Wraps

For the green portion of my snacks I have separated iceberg lettuce into individual leaves. Tomorrow I will add the ground turkey on top of the leaves to create my protein snack lettuce wraps!

I still have many hours before I go to sleep.  I really feel like just being alone.  I am hoping that all of this is simply many years of toxins being stripped from my body.  

I NEED to feel some sort of goodness from this all soon.