Xyngular: Day 6 (Meh!)

Friday evening.  I am hungry.  I was browsing Facebook and came across this lovely, delightful photo:

This looked so yummy!

I about cried!  That salad looks so delicious.  That sandwich does as well.

Reality has set in.  I am fat.  I have always been fat.  Even when I'm thin, I'm fat.  Maybe I don't really give a damn if I lose weight.  

I canceled plans with friends tonight because they are going to dinner and drinking.  These are two things I cannot do while on this eight day cleanse.  It's the end of day six.  I'm going to stick this out.  I just knew that I wouldn't be able to do it if booze and food were right in front of me.  

During the maintenance stage of the Xyngular Ignite , I could go to dinner and at least make some smart food choices and enjoy a meal with my friends.  Right now I can't.  That is very frustrating to me.  It's Friday night.  I suppose I'll stay home by myself so that I don't slip and eat.

A little later that night.....

So the weekend is here!  I was sitting at home alone on my own accord.  It was too early to go to bed and yet I was miserably hungry and being alone with no distractions was making it ten times worse.  

I called my friends to locate them and then headed over to the local bar (The Trapp).  I found them in the back bar area playing darts and having a good time.  

Life is about living and I only have myself to blame if I let it all pass me by.  I grabbed me a big old mason jar full of ice water and settled in for the night.

Here's a picture of the dance floor:

Dance floor at The Trapp SLC

You may have noticed that there is nobody dancing. The dance floor at this establishment is more of a wasted space between the front bar and the back bar and patio.  The only people who dance are those silly straight girls who come to experience a gay bar.  They get totally trashed and then makes fools of themselves on the dance floor, often falling to the ground in a sad, drunken heap.  

I had a great time with my friends and spend a lot of the evening out on the patio chatting, laughing, and just enjoying each others company.

Here we are on the patio.  Notice my mason jar of ice water!

(L-R): Seth, Justin and me

  I'm not sure how it happens, but I always seem to almost blink AND open my mouth when a picture is being taken.  

I've been going to sleep around midnight all week long and tonight will be no exception.  Tomorrow is beard trimming day.  Exciting!

The proof is in the pudding and at the end of eight days we will see how much weight I am down (that hopefully won't just be water weight loss).  I will be curious to see how many inches I have lost as NONE of my clothes are fitting any looser.  In fact, the waist on my pants is tighter.  

My belt has three notches that I fluctuate between.  The furthest notch (when I'm at my thinnest), the middle notch (when I'm just sort of around where I prefer to be), and the FAT notch.  I am currently at that FAT notch right now.  To be fair, I was on this notch when I began the eight days, however, when I began it wasn't STRAINING and now it is.  I do have more notches on my belt, but have not wanted to allow myself to ever use them.  *sigh*

Two more things and I am out for the night.  While on this program my bank balance has not changed all week long.  Usually by this point in the week I have eaten out enough that I am around $100 less than at the start of the week.  I would like to point out though...  That money was still spent!  I had to pay $300 for this program (which in all fairness is for a months supply).  I have also had to purchase all my greens and proteins (which are expensive).  I really don't think I've saved any money this week.  It was all just spent last Saturday when I did my shopping for the week.

The second item.  This week I have broken out in acne.  Not on my face, but on my chest, shoulders and back.  I NEVER have acne anywhere other than my face.  I use Proactive to prevent that.  I have for years and will continue to do so.  This body acne is annoying.  I suppose it does mean that my body is releasing toxins through my pores.  Go me!  

Happy Friday.